29 May 2007

Inefficiency!

Ever got frustrated because someone else is inefficient at work?

My experience today nearly caught me in "flames"! Went out in the early morning to avoid traffic and crowd. Arrived at the place happy and exchanged the old items for my new ones. I checked through them thinking that everything is in order and signed for it. Glad that it was an early start, I went for my groceries items, spending a good morning there!

Arrived at home and started trying the new items and found out 2 of the items were too big! I called and enquired on the size in their computers and WALA! It was a different size. I had to travel back there to change for the correct ones! I could not believe myself. I was angry at myself for not checking thoroughly enough, yet, it was clearly stated both on the form and in the system! They even checked before handing over to me! How inefficient were they! I took a cab again, this time the cab driver thought I did not know the way and drove me to another place wanting me to get off! I DEMANDED and directed him to where I wanted to go! Got there mad, and they even asked where I was staying before handing over the right stuff! Arghhh. Thankfully I met a mate there who offered to give me a ride back home. I was so near to telling them not to waste my time. They were lucky I met someone kind who turned me sweet! Not the first incident with them! Wasted my time and money on transport.

So a lesson to learn, always check things with sizes before heading to home sweet home. One greater lesson, never trust and depend on the people working "here" (shall not mention)!

28 May 2007

Normal Day

A normal day...
Things I did today,
1. Watched "Employee of the Month" (second time)
2. Watched parts of "200lbs Beauty" to kill time
3. Registered for the GST rebate online (have you done yours?)
4. Email, msn (chatting seems to get pretty quiet nowadays~ must be the GSS occupying them)
5. Chatted with him (seems to get shorter sessions these days, but he must be tired)

Well, yes, long distance relationship can be real tough at times. Especially when you don't feel that good and ponder if things are still going fine. I did check with him if things were still going fine for us. I guess I am in the emotional state as for now, shall be fine within days. Just missing the normal times couples have. On top of it, the coming Vesak holiday will be another long weekend for him but without me!

What I had today,
1. Cups of Milo (kicking coffee addiction)
2. Soy Milk with cereals
3. Avocado Smoothie
4. Fatoush Salad (Lebanese style salad, one of my favourites)
5. Kaya (sudden craving for it, had scoops of it with bread)

That's about it for now, guess I will get hungry in awhile. Not in the mood to cook noodles today. A change I guess. I am already wondering what to have for tomorrow. *Weah*

External beauty VS inner beauty

Sleepless but tired with emotions. Was scanning through "You tube" for comedies. He mentioned he had seen that show and I thought it was a good idea to try my luck. I managed to find "200lbs Beauty", in Korean with English subtitles. It took me a few good hours for 13 episodes on the website.

In the beginning it was all light-hearted. How an ugly, clumsy and fat girl uses her gifted voice to sing for someone else and her "aunt agony" hot line. She fell in love with the producer who was into her innocence. She was made fun of at his party by the girl she sang for. Her lack of confidence made her decide to go for a plastic surgery. A total transformation. (Do girls really do that? Is there such a good surgeon?) She became a princess of her dreams. She got away with many things due to her flawless "natural" beauty. In the process of it, she lost herself, her best friend and dad. Finally at her own dream concert, she could not further disguise herself and made a true confession to the public. It was her voice that won her the fans at the end of it. It was her inner self that he could not forget. Awwww... It got all emotional at the end of the show.

It just got me into thoughts again. How many of us are real? I am not talking about plastic surgery, and even if you have done it, would you admit when someone were to prompt you? Being real to others is not at all difficult is it? Personal experience, there are people out there who find it more difficult to be real. They rather be fake, in disguise, be in false fronts, use unreal words, hide their real feelings etc.

Pausing here, ask yourself if you have been yourself or trying hard to please others by being someone else? Does it matter how we really look or is it our personality that makes a difference today? Have we lost focus on being ourselves as society moved on and seeing how others are doing? Are we placing vanity first? Are we being materialistic instead of treasuring what matters to us? Have we forgotten all about human touch?

Flawless beau, how we all think that is perfect to have.
Worthless personality, someone with that is a no to have.
Giving all yourself away, will that change a heart?
Keeping all of yourself, will that not meet a true heart?
To transform painfully for the sake of someone, will you take a chance?
To perform within your capabilities, will you not have a chance?
What is of material driven, is that worth to invest?
That of real core values, is it not worth to keep abreast?
A choice to make, to reveal.
Will that choice be of the fake, or real?
Don't ever break the hearts of people who love you for who you are.
For you are special, there is only one unique you in the world. Make you believe in you.

27 May 2007

Seoul Attack!

First of all, a pity that there are no photos to this blog! Too busy eating, seeing and dancing?

Reached Seoul in the evening, enveloped with excitement in that cool nice weather of about 20 Degree Celsius. Met up with Geenie, a buddy of mine. We could not decide what to eat as there were too many choices. Ended up with BBQ dinner in Gangnam. The dinner came along with sides like salads, sauces and we ordered spicy cold noodles too. Had the most amazing sort of plum wine, "Mae Wha Su", in a dainty bottle but consumed with shot glasses. After dinner, we had a walk along the streets filled with shops and street food. Stopped by and had "Dok Po Kee", rice cakes coated in chilli sauce and "Soon Dae", pork intestines filled with noodles. Imagine how our stomachs look after that. Diet? No way, not for this night!

Then we took the subway to "Hong Ik University", where young adults hang out. It was a Friday, also known as the "club day". You can just buy a ticket and club hop among seven hot clubs. We ended up in one, called M2, as the music was great to dance with, "Trance/House music". We were too lazy to check out other Hip Hop/RnB music places as it was crowded everywhere. It has been a long time since I really danced. We did so this time for about 4 hours! Yes, we stepped out of the club at around 4 a.m. with our legs giving way!

Before heading back, we had "Ramen", noodles in spicy hot soup, at a small famous little food hut. Chatted for awhile more and we took a cab back. I was pretty much awake still. Showered and waited for a while before I crashed in the cozy bed till it was time to go.

Thanks to Geenie. I had marvelous time. Though it was a pity I did not have time to do shopping at all. Oh well, I guess I can do that if I had to be in Seoul alone.

Memories of Seoul banked!

24 May 2007

Precious Moments

Was awake by people singing at 6am! James Blunt sound-alike but isn't it abit too early to get vocals going? Anyway, could not sleep further and started my packing for tonight's trip! Am truly excited to meet a friend in Korea! With a local to bring me around, I am sure I will get to see more! Got my camera ready too! Then again I think we will be busy eating!

Was looking at my room and started missing my Precious Moments figurines back home. A whole collection of them! Stopped as economy is not doing so well.. Hiak! Then started to miss my girlfriends again. Looked through the photos we collected since last year and came up with this piece.


Precious Moments - Friends treasured @ heart


OOops... did I miss out one of the VIP? Here goes another,

Days together in Sg and Dubai

Oh well, looking at them makes me smile. Till the next blog, let's hope I have some good adventures in Incheon, Korea.










23 May 2007

Adidas

My last collection of Adidas shoes and others (heels and pumps) were all perishing... either the rubber soles went dangling detached or the leather skin wrinkled to breadcrumbs. I was truly sad when I open the shoe boxes at home in Singapore. I thought they will await my return for another show! Was complaining to my mum non-stop as if she knows anything about Adidas! She just commented,
"You have so many pairs of shoes to wear, not enough ar?"

Haiyo! Different shoes for different occasions, settings, outfit and season what! What to do, as a reminder, do wear the shoes you have not been wearing once a while before they decide to leave you for good.

Decided to take photos of my shoes now, at least I will have memories of them in time when they break-up with me! Done so out of boredom too. Heez...

Got this few years back, soccer bootie alike! (Cheap!)


Use to have a dark brown pair, pretty similar...Spider



Missy E.Adilette 2 Slippers, can't bear to wear them often.. Saw them while window shopping, WHITE! My favourite colour, thus I could not resist that temptation! Nice combination with PINK and blue.
Country Sleek, similar to my older version in white and blue. Finally something more practical!

Midiru, most places only carry the black with red stripes.
Just like my school shoes long ago!
Okie, enough of this collection of shoes, till the next time, different types of shoes! Maybe I should look through my cupboard and take pictures of clothes too!

Middle East From Top





The landscapes, sand, sand and more sand!





Sunset over the waters...



Maldives from top



Took these when I had the opportunity from Male Airport to above. *SIGH*
I am still waiting for my chance to visit Maldives!!! When?






22 May 2007

Ice-breaking Ground

Imagine each step we take on a ice-breaking ground,
won't you plan and act accordingly for each of them ?
How careful must we be?
As we take the steps, we may realise certain blocks of ice we chose are not as stable.
We therefore have to make a quick choice in changing the directions.
Till we reach the destination we want, safe, we heaved a sigh of relieve and be gay with the smart moves taken.

Isn't it the same as we face some bad situations sometimes?
It could also apply to goals that you want to reach.
Along the way, you may need to divert, therefore being able to adapt quickly is vital.
When the problems are solved, goals are met, we smile silly and stand proud to have made it!

Braving through the different life stages, challenging?

Welcoming the changes, quickly?

Planning for the future, being realistic?

Bored

Prank calls again!!! Was about 1am when I was trying to sleep and this idiotic idiot called again. This time round I just kept quiet and he hung up. Then he attempted again and gave up finally when no one answered him. Arghhhh, who the *duuuut* has got nothing to do but to call. I am not the only one, flatmate got the same thing sometimes too!

Woke up at 9am, dragged myself out of the house to get some groceries. Focused on my vegetables - lettuce, mushrooms, carrots and chilli. Got cut pineapples, two boxes of cereals and malt soy milk. I am suppose to stop having my relationship with coffee, so looked for alternatives, Milo! Did some other shopping, got home and cooked my Korean noodles with lots of lettuce and chilli! Those chilli padi, shot the senses through my tongue. Yummy!

Then I packed my wardrobe again. Putting the tops in categories and colours. Hmmm.. with the combination of those in Singapore, why do I always complain I do not have clothes to wear? Strange but well, girls are girls, heh... Packed those that I seldom or don't wear at all into suitcase in preparation to bring back.

Am truly bored. Looked through my friendster and got to my cousins'. Fabian's son is too adorable! Got to see him in person during CNY period. I think my cousin will not blame me for stealing these photos. My nephew, Aidan... He really looks so good to hug and cuddle...


Wonder how big he will grow the next time I see him again...











21 May 2007

Triggered from sad love song...

Sitting alone in my room, was listening to a song repeatedly. It strucks me sad and triggered me to write...I do think love can sometimes be such a pain. Just like MidSummer's Night Dream. In the course of true love, nothing comes easy. Recently a gf of mine is going through what the song perfectly describes. I did send it to her. Not to make things worse but hopefully she sees another path that will come her way.
Recently you seem to be quiet,
Why and what is happening?
Is there something you are upset with quite?
Or that string we are pulling?
Heard you are lonely recently,
I am confused with all,
But I can't be at your side permanently.
That makes me fall.
What you want from me,
I can't give you my all,
What I can give to you,
is not what you are looking for.
We are not compatible,
we have to come to terms to that,
Often we will hug and cry yearning to be comfortable,
Knowing there will be a last cry to that.
All of these seem like a beginning,
But I think it is an end since the beginning.
I don't want to hold on to it any longer,
There may be a better love path next time.
Love, I can't give you my all,
This time we can only look for our very own happiness.
What is meant to be will be. Can we make a difference when things are just not meant to be?

Record breaking!

After a long long time, I broke my sleeping record (of more than 5 hours usually)!
Chatted online till 10pm or so and slept. Woke up at 1am because of a prank call, hung my phone up and slept. Woke up again as it was too warm to turn on the AC. Then off I went to sleep. Thinking I will wake up at 6am at the most.

Got up finally and was smiling when I saw that it was 1015 am! Think my body really craved for this rest. Having said that, I am still feeling tired and restless. Aching wrist and back. What has work done to me? Or is it my age reminding me to slow down.

Yet another day to start. Cannot do much due to the hot weather, yes I meant hot! I love the sun but not the ultimate damage to my wrinkling skin!

Washed my bathroom n cleaned the room a bit. What else to do for the day?

20 May 2007

Thoughts

Everyone of us think about some things at times. They may be of pleasant or else. They may place a smile or frown. Some linger while others vanish into thin air within seconds. What are your recent, repetitive, or worrying thoughts? Do they seem to have a certain impact on you?

Thoughts that made me pause,
My world changed with cause.
Thoughts that dyed my mind,
They seemed to constantly remind.
Thoughts which are not coincident,
Kept away my very present.
Thoughts which cannot escaped me,
Are what they want to be.
Thoughts running on similar thread,
Will they then be misread?
Thoughts worrying a faint soul,
Can they make things foul?
Thoughts kept me going sometimes,
They kicked my butt at times.
Thoughts made me hiding within,
Will I surface the win?

19 May 2007

Online banking

A follow-up of what had happened last night. I wrote in a feedback to the bank in regards to how inconvenient things were after that technical fault. I received an email stating to call the help desk again so that they can assist me. They apologised for the inconvenience caused too. This time round when I called, I do not have to print anything nor visit a branch. All I had to do is to use my phone-banking pin number. I can access online banking once again after an hour.

This makes me wonder, why are things not made simpler in the first place. Merry-go-rounds? Do we always have to get to the top management before things go the way it should be? Why no initiative to offer alternatives when stuck in a situation? It is all about customer-service and recovery process. Anyway, am glad things are back to normal this morning.

I am drowsy with that aching wrist. Did not sleep well once again. Too much on mind...Thinking of reporting to work later makes it worse... Till the next log-in, let's all hope online banking here sails smooth for me!

18 May 2007

Girls Days n Nite

It was yet another lazy day the day before, but I decided to do something with some girls. Visited them at their building. It was cozy and comfortable. Looked through their photo collections and found myself getting old compared to these young girls. We then headed down to Mercato Mall to shop and have our dinner. We all bought something, from really cute tees, tops, shorts and dresses, each to our own liking. Of course, things that are more expensive made us think twice. Except for one gal who finally decided to get her "Little Miss Giggles" from Topshop without hesitation after her lesson learnt. Isn't it true that we sometimes regret not buying the things we fall in love with at first sight?

We then had dinner at the food court and headed back. Two of them are really into the "thrill of winnings", in other simple form - gambling. Started playing cards and I joined them since there was nothing much to do. Knew I can never win anything in the end, won the first 2 rounds with wonder and lost the rest of them. Hee hee, when you don't believe in gambling, don't even try! Along the way we had beers and tidbits and noodles. One other joined us really late and was roped in to play as well. We then stopped and started chatting in the room, two "fainted" on the same bed while the rest of us continued chatting loudly till 3 am in the morning. Chatting with these girls made me feel older. We had a few good laughs though. Been awhile since I giggled and laughed with a group of girls. The no worries be happy kind of setting seems to make me forget the heavy heart of mine.

Woke up this morning and went to another mall to have lunch and shopping again. Little Miss Giggles is in the form of shopping with a high spirit hanging. She is very happy with her purchases though.
We had an incident at ZARA. 2 of them were trying on jeans in the fitting room while I was on shorts. There happened to be an extra security tag in one of the pockets of the pair of jeans they tried. Naturally in order to deem the fit of the jeans, took that extra black tag out of it. The security lady then came asking my friend where she found the tag she is holding on to. "In the pockets," and she pointed to that pair of jeans. I was standing outside witnessing all these. Then the lady asked her again twice, the same question. She replied patiently the same thing. The security lady seemed to think we were trying to be funny. Went into the fitting room the girl was in and checked through. She then looked at us as if we have done something wrong. We then went out of the fitting room, hanging around the shop, still deciding to purchase what we wanted or not. This time the shop assistant came asking the same question! I was mad! All of us were. My girlfriend replied the same thing and pointed to exactly where she found it. The shop assistant repeated the question again, looking at the possessions we have as if we have stolen something. This time, another girlfriend, furious, took out her shopping bags in order to let her search, the shop assistant denied the check, she merely wanted to say, "No, I don't.....", I could not take it any longer. I stood in front of her and said harshly, "She found this in this pocket (pointed at it), you guys have been asking her the same question for almost 5 times. She already told you the same answer over and over again. Do you get it? She found this in this pocket and that's it!" I walked away and hanged back the stuff I wanted to buy. I was mad at how they think we were trying to be cheeky! Then came again another time!!!! The security lady with another security guy! I wanted so much to be mad and furious. My gf then explained it one more last time! We all had a good time saying crude stuff without them understanding. However, we were the stars in the shop as all eyes were on us, from the shop assistants to the security! I then put that behind me and asked for a new pair of shorts that I wanted. Guess what was the reply? "Is there anything wrong with this?" I almost fainted. I just replied saying I want a new piece and asked if there is any! My gf was telling me they always ask that when we ask for a new piece. We paid and graciously walked out giving a disgusted look to them!
We had a coffee break and then after a few more shops, I could not stop thinking... I just cannot resist that pair of shoes. I spotted in Singapore's Adidas Originals shop and saw it here once again. So in the end, I bought it just before we left the mall after much discussion, in case I regret in time to come.

Got home finally and unpacked the things into the cupboard. Wanted to do some errands with my online banking and now I am very upset with what happened. I logged in using the same user name, password that I used all the time. My last log in was a few days ago! The page returned an error message so I thought I was wrong, decided to try again. It got rejected again with the same message. Took out my records on paper to confirm before keying it in. Smiled at myself as everything was CORRECT. Guess what? It returned a message and asked me to key in new password and so on for security reasons!!! I did as requested and that's not the end! The message request me to call the help desk to reactivate. I did... and nope, not a full stop as yet. They want me to print the page out and send it to one of the branch before they can reactivate the account! Pardon me, I know it is for security reasons and I am thankful for that. However, how I can ever type in the wrong thing for 3 times when I did the same for the past year!!! On top of that I am very sure when I look at my records on paper before keying in the same thing again! I am not getting short tempered here, but things here is very troublesome when certain issues can be resolved in a more intelligent way. Wrote in a feedback and I am now thinking of changing my bank if they are not going to resolve this issue with a proper explanation!

I simply do not understand why the service here is of such low quality, or am I asking for too much, setting too high a standard? Even the way they speak, where is the social etiquette?

16 May 2007

Bonkz

Tried to rest from morning, managed just a few hours of light sleep. In heavy sleep debt! How will my dark eye ring circles ever vanish? My rest can never be of normal. I wonder if I am abnormal here.

Done 50% of the laundry, unpacked and place things into their positions. Cleared most of my emails, when will people start sending things that are more meaningful? Appreciate those jokes and video clips that made me laugh silly in my room. Replied a few emails and found a site that leads me to something interesting and left me pondering... how true can this be? Find out for yourself!

http://www.flarn.com/~warlock/tarot/

What Tarot card are you?

You are The Moon
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.
The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.


This was different from the card I got last week...

You are The Sun
Happiness, Content, Joy.
The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.
Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.
The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.


Hmmm, oh well... I don't even know what I am thinking right now. I guess the lack of sleep has gotten me dreamy. Knock knock! Some parts of the two different cards I drew are very applicable though. Last week was more of a light-hearted week. Today I am just feeling so not right. Shall I try again tomorrow to see if there are other differences?

For now, I guess I should try punching myself to dreamland. Tomorrow will be another day to run my errands. If I want to......

I find myself so far,
Thinking too much.
Worrying for nothing?
I find myself a blank,
Feeling the need to fill.
Completing for answers?

Long trip

Missing in action online? Where did Bibi go? I was away from base to Singapore and Brisbane. NO!!! Not on leave and just a short stay of 2 X 24 hours in SIN, 4 days in Brisbane.
What I am missing now is him, the food in SIN and the time spent with a mate, Shayne. She rocks and we rocked the trip in a simple way.

Food that I grabbed in SIN - fish burger(I am not stupid, it still taste better than...), dim sum at Shang's Place, mee goreng, mutton soup and X.O. fish bee hoon!
Spent simple yet meaningful time with him. I just feel so much of being myself. Had a good topic to chat on. Found out things that I wanted to know but I wish I did not ask and seen for self. Hard for me, guess trust is a mega word for me now. Being away from each other at a distance paints an extreme picture. Where will it go from here, that I leave it to us as time pass by. Happy yet insecure? What can I do?

Food that Shayne and I went for in Brisbane - Hungry Jacks' wrap, food court stuff, dim sum (lost our appetiete when food was presented), Sushi for 3 consecutive days, not forgetting our ice creams!!!
Daily routine there was to eat, shop for the whole day (PS: shops closed at 5pm or earlier), loitering at the Treasury Casino and hanging out together in my room. We girls simply spent each day chatting away(till 5am). We wanted to shop till we drop, however, things there are not as economical like before. We visited the same shops almost everyday, in hope to spot things that we have missed. I was lucky to sweep across that sales rack and found 3 tubes! Gave up a white Roxy bag that I was tempted with! I was Shayne's "bunny" at the casino. I dislike gambling, due to someone who was dear to me. On top of it, I have tested many times, I will lose any amount of money I place in. I can only pass my luck to others. My job was to stand behind her whenever she placed a bet. Many times when I am not with her, she will lose those rounds. Wa La! She must have loved me for the small winnings she made! It's funny how we click and then realise we have lots in common, from liking of Adidas to types of food and views on people and life. This trip was kind of a get to know her excursion!

What kills me from this trip was my wrist that hurts whenever I exert pressure. Bought a wrist guard to hopefully shoo the strain away in time.

What awaits me now is a whole pile of soiled clothings, to be handwashed mostly! AHHH! I just can't start that engine. The look of the laundry basket is pathetic! Everything seem to need a little spa treatment, from my room to the bathroom and Bibi! Oh yes yes and the will power to detox!!!

Missing all the times with Da and Shayne.... till we meet again!

07 May 2007

New!!!

To those who have been reading my blars blars on friendster, this is an invitation to this site of mine from now on. Decided to use this as it is easier for me to access from wherever I am.

The link, "Past Collections" is an archive to the blogs I have, "Travel Bloggies" are the ones for the roaming I bothered to journal down. Photo slides are added for life... I am still working on many of the others... "Times in Dubai" is a summary of events that took place while I am here. From the different activities, party scenes and international friends that I made over the past year half. Just to give an overview to those who have been thinking what has life been for me. Of course, those are just scenes of happenings.

Life for me now is still a road of discoveries. Missing where I really belong still hits me hard when I am all alone. Moments to treasure... I will and with all of you.