ROME

ROMA

I managed to capture moments in ROMA once again. For those who do not know, I lost the pictures taken in Dec 2005! With great fun company, I managed to revisit the Colosseum and Trevi Fountain!

The weather was nice enough for cuddly couples...*tsk*...Windy, cool, with rain drops at the later part of the evening. Rome is the capital city of Italy, usually filled with locals and tourists. The busy streets make it a challenge to cross the roads. Er, yes, there are pedestrian's crossings but Italians are great "F1s" behind the wheels! So do be very careful!

Before the sun goes to sleep, we hurried to the Colosseum, Anfiteatro Flavio or Colosseo. On the way, we took snapshots of the ruins, speak of history which I can never put it down in words. Grabbed a beer with the boys and enjoyed the colours of the changing skies. Of course, I did skip along like I always do! We were taking shots in front of the Colosseum when one "look-like-it" professional photographer offered to take shots for us. WALA! He did it with such ease and angle! Thank you stranger! From then, we tried mastering his skill and capture a few more. Near to the same effect but not quite there!

We walked to the Trevi Fountain, Fontana di Trevi, mesmerising and most ambitious fountain in Rome. Coin throwing by tourists is a usual thing. Not this time for us, too crowded! We had to squeeze through little corners just to get pictures taken. I got my fridge magnets of the Colosseum and Trevi. Just in case, this is my last visit to Rome.

It started to drizzle, our energy level dropped to red zone. We had to stop for refueling! There are many cafes and restaurants along the streets. Very typical in Italy. We chose one that few have been before. The waiters there, speak English, are jovial and comical! Had a tough time deciding on pasta or pizza! In the end, thin crust pizza was it! With the cold weather, red wine was the perfect company! The tiramisu - too good!

What say you after long walks in the cold, good food at the end? We slept through in the bus on the way back to the hotel. Crashed landing!

If you want a comfortable holiday in Rome, April through June is nice. Summer hits from July to September. Must tries - pizza, pasta, hot chocolate, espresso and tiramisu! Wines are too many to choose from! People watching is great too! Shall skip the details. For you to find out! ROMAnce is always in ROMA!

A Day Without Meow...

After a few days and nights with Kat around, I kinda got used to the lively house! She is not around today, without a housemate for a day makes a difference this time. With my ex-housemate, even if she is around, we both tend to be on our own. So life at home was pretty much of a lonely world. Kat brought colours, laughter and life! I wonder if my neighbours noticed the "noise" we both generate when present.
I did what I wanted to do today, not 100% but at least my grooming part is done. The unsightly regrowth is now covered with my chosen colour! The worries of turning into a "desert ninjaress" was unnecessary. Juliet, the hairdresser, did not look impressive, however, after a discussion, I realised she understood what I want without difficulties! Thanks Juliet!
Was too lazy to travel to a big supermarket, popped in to a grocery shop to get a few general items, juices, cereals, cabbage and the sinful tortilla chips. Well with Kat around, I feel more like it to buy food items, more like a home.
Got to retire to bed for now, heading to Rome (indirectly to Milan first). I really hope to have a good one. Tiredness is still with me. I need to get out of it! Fixing myself is such a task. Till next bloggie, I do hope I have interesting Roma to share!

Tiredness or Burnt-Out?

Lately been feeling strange. Tiredness suddenly becomes a noun I have to deal with. A noun I struggled explaining to people. Tiredness prolonged is fatigue? I guess I am in that zone. In a way, I stopped enjoying what I do. Everything just paused. All I want to do is rest, doing nothing. Not even going out. What is happening to me? I googled and found the following.

http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinformation/mentalhealthproblems/sleepproblems/tiredness.aspx

It becomes pretty alarming for me. Maybe all this while, I have not been taking good care. Oh well... Stubborn Bibi, what's new?

It well could be burnt-out.
Definition of burnt-out: exhausted as a result of longtime stress.
Anyway, if you happen to have the following warning signs, you know you need a change before it worsens.

1.Chronic fatigue - exhaustion, tiredness, a sense of being physically run down
2.Anger at those making demands
3.Self-criticism for putting up with the demands
4.Cynicism, negativity, and irritability
5.A sense of being besieged
6.Exploding easily at seemingly inconsequential things
7.Frequent headaches and gastrointestinal disturbances
8.Weight loss or gain
9.Sleeplessness and depression
10.Shortness of breath
11.Suspiciousness
12.Feelings of helplessness
13.Increased degree of risk taking

We all feel tired once in awhile. We all need a break. Have you been feeling like I do? Time for a slight change in order to enjoy life yeah?

For me now, I guess I have to learn to deal with it. Being based here does not help. I have myself to deal with! I wonder why I feel so tired, physically and emotionally. Could be the job getting into me... Press on Bibi! You can do it!
Looking forward to a good break! Counting down...

Moving On

Moving on.

It's not just about it, is it?

On-going recovering, not?

The pains that we are so used to.

What's there for us to look into?

The world is big.

Just how can we not dig?

Choices for new beginnings.

What are your feelings?

The shadows overpowered.

The future of the promised.

Moving on.

Can it be as light as feathers?

Or just tonnes over shoulders?

It can be easy to many,

Is it for you and me?

The cage that you hate,

Sometimes is yet just a shelter.

Those magical moments.

Will it resurface for a moment?

Loving it, yet not,

Missing it, yet not.

Moving on.

Life is a long travelled path.

With doors to lead to unseen.

The big waves come,

Will you let it sit and be done?

Engines stalled.

Replacement called.

What shall be, shall be,

Can that be just you and me?

Leaning upon hopes and dreams.

What's ours in time to be?

Needing a break

Was solo in Mauritius once again.
Just barely 11 hours there on that beautiful island. With people of smiles! I took a short walk along the beach, it was sunny and very windy. Sudden rush of thoughts came drowning my very tired mind, heart and soul. I felt the strong need for a good break at such a place. Looking at the waves, soaking into the surroundings. Took the last beach chair and had a good view of the happenings that afternoon. When will I be that someone on the beach with no worries and having a good time!!!
Let the sky, sea and sand take over... let me breathe, let me just be me.
Few hours flies and I left to fly back into sandland. Was really tired. Managed to catch my little naps to make up 6 hours of sleep. I think I am still in debt though. This morning, I cooked chicken curry for Kat, filled our tumz tumz with it. Guess will be another relaxing home day for us. Tonight I have to struggle with decision once again. To go or not to go. It's such a routine for me.
Needing a break, soon very soon, will be catching the action in HKG with a bunch of mates. I miss all of them! Guess breaks are important for each and everyone of us just to keep sane! Keeping in touch with reality and self....

Homely feel...

I was out with my flatmate, Katheryn, I was pretty much tired from the sleepless nights, however, we made our way to meet her darling and two other Singaporeans on visit.
"The Terrace", sitting at part of Park Hyatt and the creek, is a really cool chill out place. Perfect for the weather in Dubai now. Friends and drinks, chats and laughters somehow made me forget a little of those thoughts. New friends, David and Colin, are pretty funny guys. Chatted about work and realise the world is really small. They happen to know my secondary school mate, and some other common friends in the same line. This is not the first time realising it. Small world, everyone seems to be connected somehow.
We chatted with lingo from back home. Some of which was so missed and forgotten, the sudden use of them brought laughters and a at home feel. Plus the mentioning of local food, which Katheryn and I have been blabbering about. I miss home! That very much. Anyway, we had just a drink or two and headed back home. Of course, not forgetting to keep in touch via MSN. Immediate adding of contacts, just in case these visitors come back into Dubai again! Nudge... M. Ice Mint the next time, please!
A distant from home... A world apart... However, it warms me, just to know the world is not that big afterall! I am still in reach to people I know! Till the next time, let the homely feel stay for awhile... just awhile more....

The Time Has Come

When the name popped, a part started drowning.
A rush of everything from the past running.
The need of an immediate reaction, to share with someone.
Not that it will disappear but at least not alone.

Legs went weak, hands tremble, heart aches.
Not about the feelings but the hurt kicks.
How not to feel, what not to be?
The reply was needed for a closure finally.

Anger unavoided as time chosen was yet another.
To think positive, execution followed by celebration?
Was it on purpose? How evil can that be of the other?
Racing against the time, that final lap to next destination.

Ouch, it hurts, like those needles on bones.
Sob, it leads, to events of the dones and undones.
Shrugs, it pauses, like a captured life confused in a cage.
Tears, it rolls, to release those ugly hurts and rage.

What has gone wrong?
What was right?
Who created it right?
Who caused it wrong?

Bleeding love, set free like a dove.
Bleeding heart, tied down like a knot.
Feeling light, spirits high like a top.
Feeling tight, choked up like a chute.

No matter, it is history.
No matter, it is reality.
Now or never, hoping pain is not forever.
Yearning for the next, downing that fear is a bitch.

Whatever it takes, brave on.
Even if no one cares, move on.
Against all odds.
Fight all thoughts.

The time has come...

Seeking

It has been so long ever since I sat down and reflect on the recent events. Suddenly I felt the need to seek for understanding. Ask me how I feel now, I cannot really describe. Ask me why I feel this way now, I am speechless. SHRUGS. I wonder why I feel so lost.
I am a distance away from everything, everyone. My timing for work is not fixed. My timing for sleep and meals, chaos. Friends who know, some totally understand, they do not expect my immediate response, nor my presence at times. Others seem to expect more from me. I cannot reach out to others like before. All I can do is be an email away, sms, msn, or use whatever means of communication. I will not know when others are feeling down and their needs unless I am being "informed". I can only be updated with life of others and their progress through some sort of "telecast". At times, I feel helpless. It saddens me... as much as I want to reach out... buts...

My solo life, will others really understand? Do others see it? Do they know how it feels to be away from home, family and friends? Do they know how helpless I can be at times? Do they know me at all?

Seeking
Seeking to be understood,
Seeking to be felt.
Seeking for comfort,
Seeking for rest.
Seeking a life,
Seeking a place.
Seeking...

Girliez

Laughters after laughters. Rattling from events to events, about people to people and sharing heart to heart matters. Had a long but good catch up with my girliez at base, at mine's, finally some changes to a not so home to a home. Thanks to my new flatmate, life is less lonely, at least I know someone is here for me now. There is more life for now. Did she move in too late? Will she stop me from leaving? Guess not... for nothing is permanent here.

Thanks girliez for making my days and nights less lonely, with less messy tots.