Respect

Respect is earned they say.
Treat others the way you want to be treated, that is the way.
Put yourself into the shoes of others before you act than sway.

Recently been treated in ways that put me down. Even after my self reflection, I can safely say I deserve better. If there is still humanity on earth... Of course there are others out there who shine and adds sweetness to my daily. I cannot explain how I am feeling right now, the whole world seems dark, heavy and unhappy. I am like a dog crushed in a car seat, helplessly trying to set self free. I have started to treat people I meet with caution, putting a shield over me. No longer like before. Why? Enough of being too nice and getting pushed around and over a certain limit.

It makes me wonder, people who treat others with disrespect, what has education done to them? Were the teachers, parents, environment, friends or society make them so blind? Or do they simply want to be out cast? Do they think they are that great among the earthlings that gives them the right to treat people with disrespect, that they have their own private unlimited company every where they go?

Day in and out, we all work in one profession or the other. It is our job to do it right with responsibilities. Not to be told what to do, how to do it and be customised and personalised for use! I think the way we treat others, is a true reflection of the person we are in us. Let's all remind each other, everyone of us deserves the basic respect unless we sabotage ourselves of our worthiness. Why make the world a less happy place when you can make a difference in one's life?

Respect.
Treat others well to their worthiness.
Think before you act.

Lost and Confused?

Recently someone dropped me a message of how one of my blogs, "Goals", has touched him. I cannot remember what I wrote and when I tried retrieving it, there was an network error. I am glad it inspired him. Ironically at this point in time, I am lost and confused about the goal I have first set out to achieve while I am here.

Do not get me wrong. I am satisfied with what I first set out to accomplish. However, being alone out here is making my mental and emotional health bars fluctuating to a level of insanity! How can I describe it? Maybe with age, changing environment, commitments etc, my goals in life tend to alter as well. With setbacks that I faced, emotional issues that I have been handling and independence aka loneliness that I have been carrying upon own shoulders... are all too much for me now. Somehow if you ask me where do I go from here, my answer would be a question mark. I expect a miracle? Not really, they do not happen to me as far as I am concern. I expect a door? Maybe, but will it be a door that leads to a right path or a door that leads to another alley with unreachable height of wall at the end of it?

I teared quietly as I dealt with all,

Not that I can really describe,

I just felt lost without friends standing tall.

I am surrounded with freaky tribe.

I slumped with heavy shoulders,

Not knowing what to do next,

I am looking for some kind of moulders,

To guide me to the very next.

I ran through my resources,

Somehow desperate to find a direction,

I seemed to be banging only on the sources.

I am not just not mentally and emotionally in direction.

I tell myself again to look at positives,

All things will flow in time of executions.

I cannot stop but got dressed down with the negatives.

I am looking far and out for the timed resurrections.

I need to make a good decision,

With lots of others into consideration.

I cannot afford to act on impulsion,

I can only wait with careful consideration.

I felt beaten as an individual,

Even with the past achievements.

I need to find the mutual,

I can only manage with commitments.

I am lost and confused,

Too many uncertainties that are critical and trivial,

I am heading to be fused.

I want to be once again just that girl who is jovial!

I do not feel good at this place,
Nor at this moment in time.
I wish to see an end to this sort of race.
I just want that moment in time.

I have to tell myself this,
No matter how tough,
I got to hang on as it is.
I am to face the rough.

I just need this space to drive my innermost turmoils. Another point I must drive at, let's not give up but encourage one another in this course of life. Let's remind one another, life is all about learning all the time! And yes, I am still looking forward to that one moment in time... in many areas of my life to be!

Back to Land of Independence

Missing those times back in the island of tender loving care. Where friends are just a text and call away.

It was a trip I am happy with. Though there were issues that were rather choking, these are addressed and for now, all I can is pin hopes and look forward to a surprise I have been waiting for.

I just wish I am there for some of my friends, watching their life grow with the little families they have started. Wonderful moments like these I have missed many. My best wishes to them!

Blessings, I am counting mine. For he always mention this, "Life is short...", putting thoughts to that, treasuring each day and every person presently is of such importance. Why bother to bring hurt and disappointments when you only have so much of life to live? Isn't it blissful to live with a happy heart, with no regrets in time to come?

Final Wait!

In a few hours time, my heart will be racing. I do hope I can get to that gate to be back to where I am!

My flight to Birmingham was fine, however the accommodation I was placed at was changed due to unforeseen circumstances. "Forest of Arden", a hotel in the middle of nowhere, a great view of greens and a terrific place if you are into golf! I was disappointed as I planned to do some shopping, since it was far, I glued to the greens and the appearance of little bunnies and sheep! It came in time for me to catch up my beauty sleep though. Been too addicted to my DVDs.

Before I left for UK, I started the series, "Which Star Are You From?", for once, I will have to say the leading actor's smile made me smile! He is not absolute handsome, he has this charisma in him besides his good build. Leading actress is pretty adorable and versatile. Usual love story, with a gist of Cinderella's tale. What I could not believe was....... there is a missing episode again from this set of DVDs! Episode 14. *weah* I was disappointed, nevertheless, at least the ending was delivered.

Guess my bloggies will be empty for awhile till I get back from a short holiday. I can't describe this confusion of emotions to this final wait!

Addicted

Been stuck to my lappie for the past few days. Finished one HongKong series, "To Catch the Uncatchables". The process of how a brainy cop break a string of cases, his romance and a sad ending to his life. I had a good time laughing till the ending made me reflect on how anything can happen to any of us. Also, if we have time to do what we want to do before it's too late.

Currently still on my Korean drama, "Stairway to Heaven", believed many have seen it. Highly recommended if you are not a teary person. I cried almost every single episode. So unless you are of no emotions, be prepared with tissue beside you! Of course, it made me think lots about what I have been through in relationships and my current one. I also wonder if anyone have and will love me like how the leading actor has for his true love. His love, world and heaven in one! Trust, love, dreams and promises shared, are these enough to conquer all?

Guess for me, I have got many questions which I cannot decide to throw or not. Often than not, I keep the pillars of a relationship in mind. Will the pillars fall?

*Bish* me and my emotional diarrhoea. Another lap of work before I head for somewhere I belong....

Rights n Wrongs

Rights and wrongs, they often cause dilemmas.

They are tricky to deal with from life's different cinemas.

Are actions taken considered before making the steps?

Have you thought what will ruined the preps?

Why risk ruining a foundation build with effort?

When the obvious mistake was done with comfort?

To hurt someone you love, isn't that more painful?

To be forgiven by the same, you'll feel remorseful?

The toughest part is to forgive yourself.
Why were actions not taken beginning with self?

All of us has rights, reponsibilities and control to do right.

To the wrongs, we often give in thinking it will be tight.

To make things right from wrongs, it takes forgiveness.

Then again can these things come with forgetfulness?

To correct the wrongs, will that not make a scar on a wound?

To make that scar appear right, when and what will be found?

Rights and wrongs are not for others to judge at times.

They begin from within, therefore make your own life's chimes.

Moments in Zurich

It was an early day start with a full buffet breakfast. I did not rest well the night before due to stupid things. Hate myself for that! Anyway was about to give up joining the girls for a day in town, till they kept nagging. On top of that it is the first time there that missy rain decided to stay home for us! Cool weather, about 20 degrees Celsius,with bright sunshine and nice fresh air!

We took a train from the airport and within 20 minutes we were in Central Zurich.

Ashlee with Bibi, Tomoko with Bibi, @Central Zurich

We then had to take a long walk from central Zurich to get on to our boat for a short day trip.

Along the way, we discover cosy corners and other structures and dogs too! I was smiling seeing the dogs walking on the streets. Zurich is a very dog friendly place. How nice! They can be seen at train stations, on trains, streets and restaurants. Caught a couple of shots.

We did pop in to a few label shops just to satisfy our sense of sight and touch! Finally after a good walk, we came to Zurich Burkliplatz, bought a ticket and waited to get on boat! It was a 2 deck boat with a open small deck up the top. We sat down, enjoyed the mesmerising view of the lake. There were numerous beautiful houses along the lake. Our dream to have a home with this setting! We could see the alps from far, still snow-capped! They took my breath away!

We felt so relaxed at the end of it that our eyes were retiring with a sensational closure of Zurich's lake. Thanks to Ashlee (cool, funny, sweet) and Tomoko(demure, lovely, she can be super fierce, do not push your limits), they were great companions on this trip!