Lost Without

Before, there were no directions, no love.
World was round the globe, shared with many strangers.
There were many things to think about, however easily ignored.
That alone feeling was hard to swallow, but shared with those on the same ground.
No fears, no tears, just a hiding ground.

The burdens from within cannot be unloaded.
Did not dare to, did not want to.
Led life by days, not bothered to even count.

Till then and there, there was a meaning to not stay alone.
There was a choice, a chance for sharing.
Taken steps back, did not dare.
Through courage, steps made forward.
Hopes were filled, love felt.

Seven hours apart, miles away.
It would only lesson the worry to be closer, nearer.
Decision executed, delivered, in hope of making it easier.

Home sweet home.
Many things fall upon, invisibly.
Tried unloading, tried searching for the right words.
All did not come out right.

Felt a distant, further than those miles apart.
Uncertainties, fears and all laid down hard.
Struggles to find, to fit, to be the best.
No energy, not hype. Just blank.
Expectations from her, work and fears of losing.

Passion decreases, insecurities increases.
Not good enough? No love anymore?
What is really wrong?
Passion very often forms that equation with feelings.

Struggled further, dug deeper, sank and sunk.
Awakened by mistakes, no excuses.
A slap hard on the face, no longer able to hide.
Face it, do it, be responsible and accountable.
The world now is no longer with strangers.
But with people closest to your heart.

What can be done can be done.
With support and encouragement.
With the effort of not fearing failures.
With courage and an identity.

Just don't want this to go on like this.
Just want to know the heart that speaks truth.
If we can, we will make it far, not you, not I, but us.
Leaning on the promises of taking my hands, leading me.
Show me the world you wanted to.

Lost Without.....