Check List for October

1. Vitamins intake daily.
2. 3 Litres of water daily (excluding alcohol).
3. Cook a meal for friends (chicken curry requested).
4. Avoid coffee when sleepy.
5. Party after Ramadan!
6. Save for mummy's trip (means no shopping).
7. Delete items from lappie to free memory space.
8. A weekend visit to SIN for friends and party (swaps of duties!!!).
9. Snapshots of Venice.
10. Checked this list by end October.
11. Others to be added as it comes along.....

Cleaning and charging day!

I woke up this morning feeling my back aching. Last night there was such a pain that stretched through. I wondered if this job is really getting into my health!

Despite that, I wanted to clean my room. It got dusty again! I am also afraid that the amount of hair I am losing will turn me into a "Botak"soon! Started with my mirrors, to my desks and floor. Now it is clean but give them a few more days, it's going to be the same again. Till then another whipping up! I realised my two mobiles were flat on battery too! So is my ipod nano! In short today is my cleaning and charging day!

Done with that for now. The rest of the day will be back to MSN and catching up with a new series of drama online!

Off to Manchester tomorrow morning. Just hoping getting there will not break me into pieces. No wow wow. I am stationed only at the hotel at the airport. How sad! My lappie will be with me though to get me through a night in Manchester airport, not city!

For the rest of you, hope your weekend was better. Spent some time with love ones and friends? If not, you better!

Free from All...

Set me free from the strings attached from before.

Grant me free from the guilt not for me to bear.

Untie me free from the emotions for the unworthy.

Unfold me free from the little secrets in the dark.

Allow me free from the turmoil of self pity.

Press me free from the creases created.

Push me free from the false impressions I gather.

Pull me free from the tales of love.

Break me free from the chain of thoughts.

Let me be Free from All...

Perhaps

July and August were not not good months for me. The series of events that brought me down, had me into a few comas. I thought September will be a high month... As September is coming to an end, feeling low is not yet an end. Started with another event which I felt helpless about. Please wake me up when September ends. Duties and examinations came an end too. I should feel good and way to go. Health, mood and thoughts do not seem to go in the high, they all get lower each day of September. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Wonder if there's a way to fix it, it starts with within!!!

Feeling low is not something anyone like. Sometimes disappearing will be the temporary solution. Thereafter, what's the key to feel high? Disgusted with self, searching for the I I used to be.

Perhaps this low is something I have to feel to find myself again.

Perhaps I miss those very stressful yet meaningful days with endless, priceless gain.

With the little lives in my hands that I behold in my heart, they keep me alive!

Perhaps there is something new for me out there that has yet to arrive.

Perhaps I should move on to my next goal in life instead of worrying the drive.

Perhaps it is time for me to put a stop to my lows and invite the highs of life.

Perhaps this is not the place I should linger in, that tend to stall my life.

Perhaps there is something I am holding on to, yet failing to admit it.

Perhaps I am not at all OK, yet telling myself to move on with it.

Perhaps what left me crying still hurts.

Perhaps I stood with pain all this while hiding the hurts.

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

Let it go...

Move on...

Let it go...

Brave on...

Simplest Things

What are the things that make you happy, bring smiles, envelope warmth?

As time ticks away, phases, people and routines go by in a blink. All this time, have we wasted any that could have been simply happy? As humans, we complain loads with our job, people we have to deal with, things that happened not to our desire and life in general. Ever thought of if only things were simple enough to handle? They say humans complicate the simplest things, true most of the time, isn't it? When we were younger, the simplest things were welcome and acknowledged as treasures. As we get older, knowledge and exposure somehow created a wall of maybe what we call self defense. Not believing that simplest things are just simple. We dig into matters that are the littlest to be fearful of. We speak into our minds. We don't even comprehend words or actions sometimes. Probably all this while if we welcome the simplest, we would be happier.

In a stereo room, with head pointing down, holding breath, will you feel less alone thinking of the simplest things? Nothing in this world we really own. Our life we call own. Grabbing what you can and leaving the rest, is that call simple?

Simplest things are just happening to us everyday. Will that be enough to make us gay?

Hoping all of you are smiling with the simplest things that can happen to you today!